Having a crush on a boy makes me exceedingly giddy.

Because, it means

1) I'm over Grant... finally
2) I'm not a lesbian
3) I find myself to be desirable again

which really, there could be nothing better than that. And my God, he's good looking. And funny. And a druggie, which I'm strangely attracted to.

And I can't think about anything else but him... which is pathetic, but really, I'm just giddy. Because he flirts too, I know it. So eventually, I'm going to be dating this boy. This boy that takes up so much of my thoughts right now will take up even more very soon! (I hope.)

And I sound about 12 years old. It's sad that I'm 16. I think its because I was with Grant for so long that I forgot what this felt like. But hey, a girl's allowed to be obsessive once in a while, right?

~manda